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ununoriginal) wrote2008-03-13 07:30 pm
ununoriginal) wrote2008-03-13 07:30 pm
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マジで ばいばい
the recent weather has been a reflection of my past 2 days. yesterdae was a comedy of errors while i tried to juggle getting to my IELTS speaking test, getting a cashier's order from the bank for my us visa application, and actually making it in time for said visa application appointment. in the space of 2 hours, i trudged up and down the tanglin stretch three times. ironically, the smoothest part of the process was the actual application once i got inside the fortress of a us embassy. still, unless a miracle happens, this will prob be my 1st and last trip to america. the process of trying to go there is beyond hassle. i have ZERO inclination to go there, and even less than zero desire to stay or explore there further. and if i actually do set foot on american soil a second time this lifetime, it will be, as i said, some kind of miracle. for my fren(s) who have migrated there, well, u can always come back and visit :p
my mom tells me to be optimistic. i prefer to think the worst, so tat if it turns out slightly better, at least i'll be pleasantly surprised.
another mild shock was tat my plans to leave have been found out by management. my colleagues who were in the loop reckon the leak came from HR, so there was an implication tat i might not get sent for the us training after all, in which my 1st knee-jerk response was, 'then wat bt the bloody $200 tat i already paid to get the stupid visa?? there better be some fucking reimbursement!' after a flurry of exchanges tho, it was established tat i would still be going, but tat i would remain for at least 12 months to fully train my other colleagues, which is fair enuff imo, not for management's sake, but for my section, cuz i dowan them to take the flak tat may result from my premature departure.
still, i get the sense tat my appraisal, advancement and bonus prospects are going to be adversely affected, cuz tat is the so-called 'unofficial' practice - i've worked under the same management for 6 years, and the rate tat colleagues have left are akin to a gushing tap. in a way tho, things are kinda out in the open, and i no longer have to feel like i'm evading something - i'm not a good one for secrets, when it comes to things bt myself.
still, i get the sense tat my appraisal, advancement and bonus prospects are going to be adversely affected, cuz tat is the so-called 'unofficial' practice - i've worked under the same management for 6 years, and the rate tat colleagues have left are akin to a gushing tap. in a way tho, things are kinda out in the open, and i no longer have to feel like i'm evading something - i'm not a good one for secrets, when it comes to things bt myself.
my mom tells me to be optimistic. i prefer to think the worst, so tat if it turns out slightly better, at least i'll be pleasantly surprised.