spoofing gackt

am indulging in japanese dramas again - nowadays, it seems, tho i guess it really is too soon to tell - new jap dramas are seeing the singaporean light of day again ^_^ ( banzai! )

things are not as good in the real life tho. i more or less can admit that i'm a lazy ass who lacks ambition, and the majority of my achievements have been stumbled upon, so this latest HUGE project that has ended up in my lap is being greeted by me with more trepidation than excitement. everyone keeps saying, "wow, that's great! congrats!", and i wanna tell them, "that's not the bloody point! i haven't the least fuck what i'm doing!" damn, this whole situation is turning me into a paranoid worrier >_